if you want to, I can save you

[humancentiqueef]

 First and foremost, make it through the year without trying to kill myself again. And to stop blaming myself for Aaron's death. 

Keep my intake under 1000 calories. The less I eat, the more tired I am, which slows my thoughts along with my Prozac. I like it. My family doesn't, but I do. I can't keep pretending to be all happy and shit anymore. I don't need to. They know about my dark secrets. 

Make some new friends and be able to keep them. I have a habit of getting attached to people and then getting scared that they'll be terrified of how fucked up mentally I am. I'm trying to work on my own with that. 

Comments

[casualty]

Good luck with your resolution. I know losing someone is really hard, and goodness knows, I've been in your shoes before. Still am, in a way.

I used to have a major eating problem, and while I've sort of "fixed" it, I slip back into the habit a lot. Just be careful, darling. ♥

If you ever need to talk, I'm happy to listen. I've been through... just about everything you mentioned here, and I may not have advice, but I certainly won't judge you for how mentally fucked up you are.

[humancentiqueef]

You are an amazing and lovely person, thank you very much. I'm sorry you had to go through these things as well. ♥

It makes me feel a lot better knowing there's somebody else out there who will understand, especially when friends and family don't.

[casualty]

You're always welcome. ♥

It's a difficult situation to be in, and a lot of people don't understand unless they've been there, too. :( But there are people out there who get it, I promise. ♥